One Month Left

I have one more month left before I become a Mrs. Instead of Miss. I am really happy to be getting marriage to him. But last night we got into a fight, and we are not sure what started it. I really thing emotions are getting higher with the big day coming and I still have some planning to finish and we still have to finish paying for things here and there. I have a problem with keeping me emotions out of some places and not letting them out in the right ways sometimes. I have had a problem with cutting myself for more then four years. I had gone a long time without hurting myself until last night. I felt so bad and things got out of control on my end and I just let my emotions take over. It helped then but now I have the marks on my arm to remember what went wrong. I really need to get some real help for this problem, but without medical insurance it is hard to find anyone to take me. Especially without charging me an ass load of money. I did not think about letting any one know about this until, the first time it happened with Chris being there. Now I am ready to tell any body and try to get over this any way I can. I don't want some people thinking that I putting this out there to make others feel bad, but to help others. I think that if someone else understands what I am going throughout that we could help each other.